I compare myself to other people. I don’t want to I just do. I feel ugly and stupid. Nothing I do is good enough. I have so many flaws I want to hide myself from the world. I know I keep being told I’m beautiful and intelligent but I’m always inferior to everyone. I just feel inadequate in every way. I feel lost. I’m scared of life. I’m scared I’ll get in a car accident, I’m scared of the not finding a job after college, I feel like I’m losing my looks. I’m tired of looking at my reflection and just seeing all my flaws. I know everyone has flaws but I feel like mine show more. I have acne, scars on my chin, stretch marks, a tummy, big thighs. My nose is big and my teeth have shifted. I feel like I’m losing my creativity. I will try to inspire myself and hopefully inspire other people. I’m on a journey of self – discovery and I have been since I started college last year. I don’t want my life to be a monotonous routine but then again it is safe and practical having a routine. I hope to not compare myself someday. I just know to society I’m ugly or decent looking. I want to look like a Hollywood, glamorous woman. Everything is a struggle for me. I’m not sure if I’ll be able to write a book whether short or long.
I don’t know how not to compare myself.