Tips on Depression and You are Never Alone

Depression is a serious matter and I have it. Most people that commit suicide do not tell anyone that they are thinking suicidal thoughts. Everyone is different and precautions should be taken if someone tells you they want to end their life. Please take it seriously and listen. Get a professional to help them. No one should deal with depression alone.

Personal Note: Every human is special and deserves to be alive. Do not think no one would miss you and no one cares.  They do. God Bless You All.

Tips for Depression (In No Particular Order)

1.) A support system family and friends. Therapist

2.) Medication

3.) Creative outlet like writing a blog 😉 or writing poetry, drawing, painting, ect. Also it’s a good distraction.

4) New Age or any relaxing music. Or music you like. 🙂

5.) Always learning new things whether it’s hobbies or academic.

6.) Deep breathing and I hear yoga and/or meditation is useful.

7.) Affirmations

8.) Diet , exercise and good sleep.

9.) It sounds corny but spiritual help books.

10.) Support groups

National Suicide Hotline: 1-800-273-8255

http://www.crisiscallcenter.org/crisisservices.html

Call 911 if you or a loved one has overdosed or severely hurt themselves with a weapon (knife or gun). Use your judgement.

Depression Darkens Spirit

Darkness enraptured me,

I feel a shock wave of sadness, 

I feel your eyes watching me piercing me, 

It bleeds my heart and tears me apart,

I feel the rain coming down and the waves wash me down,

My sadness is my anchor, the evil whispers we should take her,

I want to die, I cannot breathe, 

I’m gasping let me go,

I am rowing in my tears,

I am living in my fears, 

I feel cold and alone,

I cannot get in the circle because you hiss and I quake with fear, 

You are too ugly my dear,

You are worthless you should just die,

I already am inside,

This is how depression lies. Continue reading

Depression

I have depression and so do many people, especially a large portion of Americans today. Depression is usually due to a chemical in balance in the brain. Usually people with this (including me) have suicidal thoughts and try to hurt themselves. Also loss of interest in socializing and hobbies.

When I first noticed I was depressed I was in seventh grade it was the year I had no friends. I was very geeky to my peers because I had glasses, braces, acne and we’ll I wasn’t well endowed in the chest area. I was painfully shy, I looked down at my feet whenever I walked and I was incredibly skinny and I looked fragile. You could just look at me and see that I was a sensitive girl. People ignored me or were rude to me about my clothes because I didn’t know how to dress. I used to starve myself and I would spit up food because I had anxiety everyday about going to school. I never made myself throw up but subconsciously I couldn’t keep food down. Also I cried every night and I couldn’t sleep for weeks at one point. I was a walking zombie. One day my mom took me to the doctor and I don’t remember what he said I guess I blocked it out but after that I didn’t starve myself anymore. I think he told me I was an attractive young girl and I shouldn’t starve myself (while my mom was in the room worried).

After that my life had ups and down and my peers didn’t help. I felt like an outsider and I felt very lonely.  I had a small group of friends in eighth grade but the friendships weren’t very close. High school was better than middle school because I had a best friend and we had alot in common. But he put me through he’ll because he manipulated me and made me feel ugly and stupid. There was a girl in our group who always insulted me because I was small chested. I found out during our high school years she was insecure because of her weight.  I had fun in the group but after high school I realized they were not my true friends because they didn’t accept who I was. I let people take advantage of me in high school and I was a follower. My life is heaven compared to the dark place I was in.

I still deal with depression but with medication, my family,  my soul mate that I have finally found, my friends,  therapy, and my advisor I am a happier person.  My emotional life was full of hate and agony with my emotional abuse feeling watched and judged and I was in high school. I was to THEM a dork, geek, nerd, loser, preppy, insecure, awkward, ugly and once was called creepy girl.

I was never those things. I like being different and unique now. I don’t care about fitting in. I love college it’s true what people say high school can be the worst time of your life and college is the best!!

I am not an expert on depression but if anyone wants to talk to me or if you want me to help you I will do my best to do so. 🙂 Peace, love and fairy hugs. God Bless

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What is Human Services?

http://www.ehow.com/facts_7290777_human-services-job-description.html#page=2

This is a description of what the industry I want to work within. I love ehow.com is a great site to explain stuff in simple terms about anything you want to know step by step. 🙂 Also I love that show. Haha Play on words. Also people in this field are usually bad at math, and many medical professionsneed people to know a high academic level of math. Such as calculus. :/

That’s not the reason why I pursued this but I did rule out alot of careers that I couldn’t do because of my inadequacy with mathematics.  I want to help people because I want what it is like feeling helpless, depressed, and alone.  It’s just find if my niche is what I need to figure out. I know I will. 🙂

Electrical Connected Spirit

My heart and mind are in this moment in time,

God has awakened my heart and soul,

My mind gloriously happy with electric astronomical proportions of this life,

My pulse has quickened connected to life, I’m plugged in and I’m wired,

I feel the energy of of this connection,

I’m am rewired spiritually by God and by all the love of you,

God, my soul mate, friends and family we are all as one,

Love that feels like warmth and lights like the sun,

I hear the ocean waves calm my soul,

I am in finally in control.